Don't You Know You're Beautiful?

So you got your heart broke.

Tough.

It happens.

I told you so.

She shouldn't be like that towards you.

She should love you.

She should look in your eyes and thank God for you everyday.

I would.

Savannah says i sing good.

I hope so.

I hope you don't know this post is about you.

ihopeyouknowyou're

Perfect.

I hope you know you make me laugh a lot.

I hope you know i get butterflies

when i look at you.



You're Not Sorry

Say you're sorry, 

that face of an angel comes out

just when you need it to.

As i paced back and forth

all this time,

cause i honestly believed in you.

Holding on, the days drag on.

Stupid girl, I should of known,

I should of known..

Life is hilarious.

Well. 

Yeah.

Well.

No.

I can't wait to get out of this stupid town.

Away from these stupid people.

Away from immature,

Stupid boys.

Away from you.

Away from everything.

I'm tired of pretending to be happy.

I'm at my breaking point.

I'm not your princess. This ain't our fairytale.

I'm going to find someone someday who might actually treat me well. 

This is a big world;

That was a small town,

There in my rear-view mirror disappearing now.

&&it's too late for you and your

white horse

To catch me now.

The Struggles Make Me Stronger.

I want to cry and throw a fit until you love me.

Isn't it funny.

Life, i mean.

I miss your smile.

I miss the way you play with my hair.

I miss your laugh.

I miss your hugs.

I miss you saying my name.

I miss those things you do,

That i now can't stop doing.

I miss you.

I miss your texts.

They came so frequently.

Without me asking.

Oh, they just stopped.

I guess things never stay the same.

Could it be that we have been this way before?

But hold your breath.

I won't live to see another day, i swear it's true.

Because a boy like you is impossible to find,

you're impossible to find.

So, I'll continue to keep my distance.

Hoping that the heat i feel on my back is your stare.

I won't try.

At all.

I just hope.

I pretend to be happy for you.

I mean, i really try.

I know i say i just want you to be happy.

And if you're happy with her then that's all that matters.

But that's not true.

I want you to be happy,

yes,

but with me.

Is that so hard to understand?

"You'll find better love,

Strong as it ever was,

Deep as the river runs,

Warm as the morning sun.

Please remember me."

     

Dodging Glances On The Train

 I'm not crazy I'm just a little unwell.

I know right now you can't tell,

but stay a while and 

maybe then

you'll see,

a

difference out of me.

You don't know me.

I'm tired of everyone being all pissy because 

I'm not normal.

I'm sorry i text a lot.

I'm sorry i text you a lot.

I'm sorry i get mad when you don't text me back.

My mother gave me that.

Abandonment issues.

Didn't we have homework for math models?

I hate that my phone doesn't have service.

I hate how everyone is two faced these days.

What are we?

Fourth graders?

Open your eyes lady.

Trust is a valuable thing.

Why are you wasting it on someone who has proved

time and time again that they can't

be trusted?

I wish love was a disease I could spread simply by sneezing on you.

Furthermore, i apologize for any skipping tracks,

it's just the last boy who played me left a couple cracks.

I used to used to used to

but I'm over that.

Cause holding grudges over love is ancient artifacts.

So I'm sure you know that the way she treats you isn't the way you want to be treated.

What you don't know is that the way i would treat you

would be the way you would want to be treated.

I've been called crazy.

I've been called a lot of things.

I like you like this.

A lot.

Thank God For Friends

Maybe I just want to rest.

Timing is everything.
I just want to rest.

Is it too much to ask to make you notice me?

Is it too much work?

Can I please just rest.

I hope with all my heart that

When I'm not watching you,

You're stealing glances my way.

I pray.

But, I'm almost completely sure you don't.

I should be practicing piano.

I should be learning chords.

But i can't focus on music

When you're the only thing running through my mind.

I should be doing homework.

I should be learning meters.

I believe my poetry is fine, though.

I could write and write and write the longest poem for you.

But it wouldn't express how i feel.

Hundreds of hyperbolas.

Millions of metaphors.

No, no, no.

They would do no good.

Iloveyou.

Just kidding.

Am i?

Tell you're girlfriend to stop being mean to people.

I'm friends with everyone, everyone that is not her.

Thank God for friends.

They help you through anything and everything.

Yeah, yeah! This is my Angel!

Bury Me In Satin

Oh yeah. You're a saint. You do everything right and everyone else is out to get you. I understand this logic.

I was that kind of person once. Always believing the world was out to get me.

I supposed I gave my all in life.

It's funny how you start to miss someone you thought you would never miss again.

Yeah, I miss you. 

I'm sorry.

Well of course, I'm not going to tell YOU that!

I'll hide it in a subtle message so everyone else will wonder who it is i miss. *insert chuckle*

My ear feels like it's about to explode. 

I don't even care about getting surgery anymore just as long as it stops pounding!

The band contest didn't go to well.

Got a two..

Oh well, it's not the end of the world.

When your heart stops reaching for something that's

not worth grabbing, you start to realize that what you had

was what you needed.

I miss you.

 

Why You Gotta Be So Mean?

So it's like this?
You think you're so much better than me?
You decide to delete me off Facebook, does that make you feel better about yourself?
Do you understand that within a year and a half i will be out of this stupid and town and starting my life?
Do you not realize this?

You don't really wanna stay, no.
But you don't really wanna go, oh.

I hate how you change your mind like everyday. One day you hate everything about me, the next you just have to have me. It's so silly that i feel like this. That my heart jumps whenever you look at me. Silly isn't it? 

You're wrong when it's right.

It's black then it's white.

I'd like to believe that one day i wont be so strung over you. Maybe when I'm drowning in college paperwork that i cant even think about men.

But is it really necessary to jump to conclusions like you do? i don't think so..

And if you could only feel what i feel.

And if you could only see the way i see.

And if you could only think the way i think. 

I'd like to see you walk one day in my shoes, putting up with your crap.

Just saying.

She got some beast moves.

Oh, She's a Golddigger, Just Thought You Should Know

The story starts when it was hot and it was summer and,

I had it all i had him right where i had wanted him.

She came along, got him alone, and let's hear the applause,

She took him faster than you can say sabotage.

There is nothing i do better than revenge; Only, i could care less what kind of trouble you get into.
She looks at life like it's a party and she's on the list; She looks at me like I'm a trend and she's so over it.
&& She'll try to be my best friend, smile at me, pretend nothing happened. I'll smile back and pretend right along with her. She knows everything is fake. It's the way the girl world works. But karma comes back one way or another and it may just hurt a little for her in the end.
I think her ever present frown is a little troubling,
and she thinks I'm psycho cause i like to rhyme her name with things.
And the thing is, I don't care if you are with her or not. I don't care that you're not with me. I don't care about you! I care that i was humiliated and i care about keeping my reputation. So please don't constitute this act as a way of showing that i care for you cause i do not. I just really really hate her for making me look dumb.

 

I must say, they do sing very well, even though they look stupid while doing it.

Oh, How Bittersweet..

(I'm pretty stoked about the new twilight movie coming out. I bet its gonna be epic.)

I can't think of anything that feels better or hurts worse than loving someone who doesn't love you back. The inspiration is there. Enough to keep me up at night wondering what tomorrow is going to hold. Such things keep my dreams consistent, when i do sleep. It's the very same every night. And everyday I keep up my facade as best as my eager mind will let me. I tell very little of my secrets and hope and pray that you do not understand

. Love, love, love. Is it? Or just the very fact that I'm not supposed to be too close? They teach you math, science, history, and correct grammar, but not the correct way to make someone want you. You of all people. You have so much to learn, so much time to plan your life and here i am, about to take off on mine. What do you do when the one you love is oblivious to that fact?

Forbidden Love

"And all i think about is how to make you think of me,

And everything that we could be."